fluorescent walls.. of a
world i never belonged
make my fists bleed.
when it kills me to know
that i m still alive,
and i dont know
how i woke up in this bed. ...
all i remember is..
wishing
this insomnia had taken
with itself
my last breath away...
twasnt meant to be
the last one,
now i realise....
and nobody's there to
tell me if
i ever see you again...............
still dont feel like
admitting ..
searching roads beyond you
wasnt something to be done...
and i still cant find out
what lies beyond this edge,,
no , i dont blame
you for bringing me
to this brink..
and.oh....the pebbles are so loose here...
n i am afraid
i wont die once more..
tears cant sour these eyes no more
..bled my heart out..
even then.. what keeps pumping
this agony in my veins.....
when this way downhill
seems steep to satisfaction,
and i m no more near
something safe...
to stop my chances..
identities perish and
the sands will never know..
feel the reverberations
as i send waves into the
empty air..
and i would be lying
if i said ,
they dont remind me
..of the wishes
that swept my life away..
.. came so close
to touching
whats so unreal...
legs dont tremble anymore..
the last scene of
this thing i called life
couldnt have been
more silent and lifeless....
close my eyes
for one flash of
everything i ever lived ....
......................
and i find your face
with its aurora of emotions
gripping me all over...
breaking the cemeteries
inside me to life..
no heaven or hell
to go to..
i find myself wishing
for your...
and i cant decide...
how can i want everything
at the same time
only that everything is
you...
and i look behind
wishing to feel
your fingers...
as
a pinch of cold emptiness
kisses my bare heels ....
